Saturday, May 24, 2014

Another loss

Just when I thought I was safe... 

Things were going great. A super little bump was developing and people had started to notice I was pregnant. 


But on Thursday, after a lovely day at the Chelsea flower show, the spotting began. Then a big bleed on Friday morning, and then nothing until the evening. Then it really started. 

I am currently sitting on a plastic bag on the stairs at DD's house, waiting for things to slow down enough that I can go to bed. Soon I hope. 

I'm sad of course. I have cried. But not all that much. Yet. It doesn't feel as bad as last time, partly because I know what to expect, and partly because I didn't subject myself to the horrors of the A&E department. I am pleased with my body. It's good at miscarriages. I think it's going to get it all out by itself again. I am thankful for that at least. 

I know it hasn't really sunk in yet. Little things are getting me, like seeing a name I like, and then remembering I no longer need to make a list. 

At first I thought that was it, that I have my answer now, and I am meant to be a mum of just one. But already too I have thought maybe I should try again. When does this end? 

Goodbye to another child I will never get to know. I am pleased I enjoyed you while you were here with us, but so sad you left us already.

Xxx
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6 comments:

  1. Oh Emma, no. I am so very sorry. Sending peaceful, healing thoughts.

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  2. I'm so sorry.

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  3. Hilary AlexanderMay 25, 2014 at 4:14 AM

    Oh noooo...I'm devastated to hear this. I'm so sorry for your loss.

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  4. So sorry Emma. My thoughts are with you.

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  5. Such sad news. I'm so sorry.

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  6. Emma, I am so sorry and so sorry that I am just now seeing this,

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