My Sunday Ramble

Time for another rambling catch up post on how we're going.

We have recently returned from a fabulous holiday in France with DD, PP and a family friend from Oz.   The weather was great and we had a brilliant time. I am definitely getting better at letting go where BB is concerned. He went down to the sea with the 'boys' for ages without me. I sat on the beach guarding all our stuff and trying not to be too jealous that a moment in BB's life and an exciting experience with the sea, was taking place without me witnessing it. That might sound silly, but as his sole carer most of the time and being a stay at home mum, I don't have much practice at that. I still find it quite hard and feel like I am missing out. I do really want him to have special moments and memories with his Dad though, and the huge hug he gave me on his return from their sea play adventure was amazing.

I was also aware of the fact that there were lots of people to entertain him, and that when we got home and it was just me he could be easily bored - so with that in mind I was also able to let them get on with it, giving me a bit of a break and meaning that when we got home and it was Mummy doing the bath and getting dinner again it would be novel and fun. That has worked. Our first few days alone have been fabulous, it's great that I get to be the one to turn him upside down, and play trains and peep - boo again.

He is particularly gorgeous at the moment too. He can speak in little sentences and knows how to turn on his cuteness at the right time. He is big into trains, train tracks, train tunnels... and bubbles. He still loves helping with cooking, and also likes to sit in the driver's seat of the car and 'do driving' whenever we return from a journey. He has also developed some lovely manners, saying yes please and no thank you. He uses the 'no thank you' at all sorts of funny times too - like when you say it's time for bed, or to wash his hands, or wipe his face!

I am in the 2WW again (7dpo). I feel like it's for the last time. We were going to try next month as well, but apparently PP has other plans for DD that weekend so that probably wont happen. I feel like I should call it quits this time rather than let PP make that decision, just so that I feel in control and not like it's his 'fault'.  I also don't want the pressure of knowing it's the last time (I didn't know that this time might be until after the event). I have started to plan, in my head, my 'no more pregnancies' life - it's exciting. De-cluttering all the baby stuff I have saved, getting rid of some of the child safety features, moving to another area, the possibility of nice holidays travelling with my single child, or fostering an older girl. I got so carried away with all these thoughts that I actually found myself thinking last night that it would be a bit annoying if I was pregnant. I even said that out loud on the phone to my sister earlier today. But now I have started to feel a bit nauseous - not overly, just that full feeling, not really hungry, and a slight awareness of my belly. It may well all be in my imagination, but once again I am caught up in it, just when I thought I had escaped the drama, and can't wait to start testing. I am trying to remind myself I don't mind either way, but can't help hoping...

Other news, you probably noticed lots of posts in the feed again - sorry about that - I have merged both the blogs again and will only use this one from now on. The other one had problems with the feed and the html code that I just couldn't be bothered fixing - they do overlap a bit anyway and two is twice as much work as one - and I am not all that good at maintaing one! I am going to try an be a bit more organised about posting too - we'll see how that works out, but the thought is there.

My big mission for the moment is going to be on creating some healthy cooking with kids recipes. I was persuaded that it was a good idea to join up my pinterest board with a group one, but it is horrifying me! Almost everything being posted consists of sugar and food colouring, in varying ratios. Our kids really don't stand a chance if that's all we teach them, do they! So I ended up making my own board again, Cooking Healthier Food with Kids.  My goal is to try and post one recipe a week on my blog. Tomorrow's recipe for sweet potato muffins is all ready to go, so my plan got off to a good start - for one week at least!

Finally here are some photos of BB and Mischief. Mischief came on holiday with us. He is from BB's nursery and spends his life going on holidays with the kids - he has a diary and a suitcase. It's quite fun. BB did get a bit attached to him and wouldn't sleep without him for the whole time he was with us. However, he seems to have understood that Mischief is on holiday with another child now and has been fine since we took him back to nursery. I think it's a great idea for all sorts of reasons. As far as we know - this was the first time Mischief tried mussels!

Hello, and thanks for stopping by. My name is Emma and I am a lifestyle entrepreneur, writer, teacher, coach and mentor. I am passionate about eating real food, learning, travel and health. I get to spend my days with my amazing son who has chosen to learn from the world rather than at school. We write to share the life we love and to help others create a life they love too.

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